Your Soundtrack for October 2017

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The Sound of Silence

This song is such a classic.  It deals with the reality that when everyone leaves, all you have left is silence to talk to. The most likable and recognizable part of this song is the simple melody that Paul Simon put with the lyrics. It’s simple, yet singable. According to Paul Simon, “It was a post-adolescent angst, but it had some level of truth to it and it resonated with millions of people. Largely because it had a simple and singable melody.” The lyrics are about man’s lack of communication with his fellow-man. It’s so interesting that humans are surrounded by other humans, we are all so similar, but we all feel so alone.

The lyrics of this song remind me of my darker days. That sounds so ominous. But, I call my anxiety my ‘demons’ a lot of the time. For me, anxiety is one thing that has stayed consistent for 4 years. Everything else has changed. A lot of good change has happened, but some not so good changes have happened. My anxiety is like my friend. My dark, evil friend that’s constantly trying to steal my joy and my friends and my life. But, it’s my old friend, it brings me to listen to the sound of silence. It pulls out all my insecurities. It lies to me.

Silence like a cancer grows. If I listen to the silence for too long, it grows and begins to overtake my life. It’s scary but real.

I have loved this song for years and no matter how many people cover it, there will always be a soft spot in my heart for the Simon and Garfunkle version.

I heard Disturbed’s version when it came out and I hated it. I could never replace the simple melody and lyrics and the clean, pure sound of Simon and Garfunkle. But, listening to their song more and more I’ve grown to like it. David Draiman’s vocals in their version really resonate with you. His voice is vulnerable and haunting. Yet, it has hope in it. It gives me chills every time I hear it.

Take time to listen to the sound of silence. Listen between the lines when people are texting you. Don’t be afraid to ask if someone is okay. You never know who just texted you ‘I’m fine’ while crying their eyes out. Listen when people are silent.

“Hear my words that I might teach you, take my arms that I might reach you.” These two lines resonate with me on a deep level. I want to teach people about anxiety and mental illnesses. I want to spread awareness about suicide. I want to help everyone with these issues. Many of you have probably noticed by now my references to this. It’s something that I’ve seen multiple people struggle with. It’s something that I’ve struggled with. I don’t want anyone to go through it alone. I want to spread awareness because I want to end suicide. You never know who around you is or has contemplated suicide. Everyone has secrets. Depression is a well-guarded secret I’ve learned. The people who have opened up to me about depression or suicidal thoughts or such have surprised me. I would never have thought that these people struggled with something like this.

The number of people who have told me that they had no idea that I struggle with anxiety didn’t surprise me. I hid it for years. I couldn’t talk about it. It’s still hard to talk about. Imagine that everyone around you was considering ending their life tonight, how would you treat them? What if everyone thought about this? What if we stopped shaming those who struggle with things like this that they can’t control? What if we tried to understand? What if we just sat with the broken to let them know that they aren’t alone?

The book of Job in the bible talks a lot about his 3 friends. Do you know what they did when they heard he was struggling? They visited him. Not only that, when they saw him, the tore their clothes and wept. They joined him in lamenting his pain. Then they sat with him in silence for seven days. No one spoke for seven days. They just sat with him, strengthening him with their presence.

What if you knew someone was struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts? Could you take the time out of your life to sit with them for a week in silence if it meant saving their life? The thing is, we tear people down so often, we rip them apart, we gossip, we talk behind their backs, we tell secrets. What if you knew that the person you abandoned because you thought they didn’t like you, took it to heart and thought that you left because you hated them? What if you felt like everyone hated you? What if you thought constantly that everyone would be better off if you were dead? That’s what it’s like to be depressed. It’s not sitting in bed crying yourself to sleep. Albeit, some nights it’s like that. It’s constantly feeling alone. It’s feeling like you’ve ruined every friendship and relationship you’ve ever had. It’s feeling like everything is always your fault. It’s an inability to forgive yourself. It’s losing interest in living because it feels like there’s no reason to. You go for days or weeks without showering. You suppress your appetite or overeat. Nothing is enough to fill the empty void inside of you that is slowly destroying you.

I saw a quote recently that reminded me of who I want to be. “I’m not interested in whether you’ve stood with the great. I’m interested in whether you’ve sat with the broken.” I don’t want to be known for the ‘famous’ people I get to know. I want to leave a legacy of compassion. I want to sit with the broken. I want to be there for people when no one else is. I want to be the reason for everyone to keep going.

What would you say if someone told you that they were the reason they didn’t commit suicide? Would it change how you treat people? You don’t know who’s struggling so strive to show the world what compassion and empathy look like. And, listen to the sound of silence.

And, listen to the sound of silence.

Simon and Garfunkle Version

Disturbed Version

Peter Hollens Version

 

Linkin Park’s One More Light

Chester Bennington was a name on everyone’s minds in July of 2017. He was the lead singer of the band Linkin Park. On July 20th, 2017, he was found dead having hung himself.

The lyrics of this song have resonated with me since the first time I heard them.

“Who cares if one more light goes out? In this sky of a million stars… Well, I do.”
I guess this song runs along the themes of the last one. It’s meaning is that through something really, really traumatic…one of the most important things you can do is to let people know that you care.

My grandfather died when I was 11. To this day I can’t help but think about death without thinking about him. “The reminders pull the floor from your feet. In the kitchen, one more chair than you need, oh.” Holidays remind me the most of him. I miss him a lot. His laughter, his stories, his personality. I think of the fact that he wasn’t there when I graduated high school. He wasn’t there when I changed from a little girl to a woman. He didn’t get to see me grow up. He won’t be there when I get married.

This song means to me to keep fighting for everyone in my life. It reminds me to care if one more light goes out.

If you only listen to one song from this track, please, listen to this one.

Original Version

Lyric Version

 

Christina Grimmie’s I Bet You Don’t Curse God

“Everybody cries/We’ve all faked a smile/When your back’s against the wall/And your hands are tied/”
God has always been there for me. No matter what happens to me, I will never curse God. No matter how horrible it is, I know that He has a plan for it and reason for it happening.

Sunday evening, October 1st, 2017, a gunman opened fire on a group of innocent people enjoying an outdoor music festival. That was last night. I don’t know why so many shootings are happening in this world. Christina Grimmie was shot at a meet and greet in Orlando Florida, June 10th, 2016. She died from the wounds not much later. The next night, in the early hours of June 12th, 2016, a gunman opened fire at the Pulse Nightclub in Orlando Florida. 2 days after that, a young boy was dragged into a lake at Disney by an alligator and killed. 4 days, so many lives claimed.

I don’t know why all of those things have happened. Actually, I do. Sin. That 3 letter word. That is the reason all of those things happened.

But, I still won’t curse God.

Original Version

Lyric Version

 

Skillet’s Hero

This song is about how there is so much evil in this world: “It’s just another war/Just another family torn/Just a step from the edge/Just another day in the world we live/”
It’s about how we need a hero in this life. We can’t save ourselves from the evil that surrounds us constantly. The hero that we need is Jesus! He’s the only one who can save us.

Official Video

Lyric Version

 

Linkin Park’s Battle Symphony

Yet another Linkin Park song. What can I say? I love their music.

This was one of the first songs that I heard and I’ve loved it ever since. It resonates with me and my struggle with anxiety. “I got a long way to go/And a long memory/I been searching for an answer/Always jus tour of reach/Blood on the floor/Sirens repeat/I been searching for the courage/To face my enemies/” I know that my fight with anxiety isn’t over. I know that the war will only truly be won when I die and go to heaven. But, I’m going to fight every battle that life throws at me.

“When they turn down the lights/I hear my battle symphony/All the world in front of me/If my armor breaks/I’ll fuse it back together/Battle symphony/Please just don’t give up on me/And my eyes are wide awake/” Night time is usually the worst for me. Or if I’m completely alone. I have no distractions from my tormenting mind. But, I hear my battle symphony. I’m going to fight and fight. If my armor breaks, I fuse it back together.

“If I fall, get knocked down/pick myself up off the ground/” I’ve learned that I’m the only person who can pick me up when I fall to the ground. I can have people encourage me and believe that I can do it. But, only I can actually get myself up.

Lyric Video

J J Heller’s What Love Really Means

This song is all about people searching and praying and asking God to send them someone to show them what love really means. The thing is though, the only one who can show us what love really means is God.

Official Video

Lyric Video

 

Imagine Dragon’s Warriors

This song is me. I’ve known for a long time that I would be the one who would work while everyone else would be to play.

“In youth you’d lay/Awake at night and scheme/Of all the things that you would change,/But it was just a dream!/” I can’t count the number of nights that I have laid awake for hours thinking and planning and imagining what my life will be like and the things I would change.

Lyric Video

 

Grace VanderWaal’s I Don’t Know My Name

In the summer of 2016, 12-year-old Grace VanderWaal’s ukulele and memorable voice took America by storm. She went on to win the hit TV show America’s Got Talent that year. But, the song that she auditioned with resonates with me.

“I don’t know my name/I don’t play by the rules of the game/So you say I’m just trying/”
“I am lost…/Trying to get found/In an ocean of people/Please don’t ask me any questions/You won’t get a valid answer/I’ll just say that/”
This song shows what it’s like to struggle with identity and learning who you truly are. It’s all about being true to yourself.

America’s Got Talent Version

Lyric Video

Soli Deo Gloria,

Heather

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2 Comments

Aaron Cook

I agree with the first song you mentioned. I enjoy the tune and message of Simon and Garfunkel. I have the complete album that is a vinyl record from them. “Bridge Over Troubled Water.” I only have one, and sadly the song” The Sound of Silence” is not in that album, but they have a few songs that I like in the album. I don’t care as much of the other songs more than I care for the ones I like in that album. That is also for any other songs in any albums that I listen too.

Thanks for mentioning that great song:)

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heathersambitions

I’m glad you liked this post!
That is so cool! I want to get a record player and records some day. Also, I love theur rendition of “Bridge Over Troubled Water.” I haven’t heard that whole album just bits and pieces from spotify and such.
The Sound of Silence is such an incredible song.
Thanks again for reading this post and commentingaa

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