Iridescent- Linkin Park
Iridescent, this is a song that really resonates with me.
‘Do you feel cold and lost in desperation/You build up hope but failures all you’ve known/Remember all the sadness and frustration/And let it go, let it go.’
This chorus has been me this year. There is nothing like the feeling that you can’t do anything in life. The struggle with anxiety and a sick mind is that you’re constantly lying to yourself. Even if you don’t have struggles like that, we all still lie to ourselves. ‘I’m going to fail this interview.’ ‘I can’t do that job.’ ‘I can’t raise a child.’ ‘I can’t’ ‘I can’t’ ‘I can’t.’
When did ‘I can’t’ become such a common phrase? Why did we let it? I believe that there is nothing we truly can’t do. Perseverance, hope, courage, and strength, if you have those, you CAN do anything! Stop lying to yourself. Life isn’t about the ‘CAN’T’s. It’s about the ‘CANs’. Every day I struggle to tell myself that ‘I can make it through today.’ That today will be better than yesterday. But, I do. I tell myself that. And, the funny thing is, it works. I’m still here. I believe there is a reason for me to be alive. I know there is. I’m not 100% positive what that reason is, but I CAN and I will search for it until I find it.
This song reminds me that I have to ‘Let it Go.’ You probably had the song Let it Go played too many times a couple of years ago. But, I do truly love the message of that song. That phrase is so powerful. Just think about how much you can accomplish if just let go of what you can’t change. I can’t change that people are busy and don’t have time to talk to me. But, if I just focus on that, I will begin to resent them. It took me a while to just let it go. But, it’s so freeing!
Just, let it go.
You’ll Never Walk Alone – Josh Groban
You’ll Never Walk Alone this is a song that resonates with me as a Christian. I know that I will never walk alone because God is ALWAYS with me. He is guiding me and directing me and He has a plan for me and a reason for everything.
‘When you walk through a storm/Hold your head up high/And don’t be afraid of the dark’
I’m not afraid of the storms in this life. I know God has a reason for it and someday I will know that reason.
‘At the end of the storm/There’s a golden sky/And the sweet silver song of a lark’
There is always a golden sky at the end of the storm. I’ve learned that God gives me what I need even if it’s not what I want. God’s ways are higher than my ways.
‘Walk on through the wind/Walk on through the rain/Though your dreams be tossed and blown/Walk on, walk on/With hope in your heart/And you’ll never walk alone
I will never stop walking. God might throw my dreams out the window and give me His dreams but I won’t stop walking along the path of life. Sometimes, I walk at a snail’s pace. Sometimes, I seem to turn around. Sometimes, it seems like I’m running. But, I keep moving. Knowing that God is with me gives me hope. I know someday I’ll be in heaven and this journey will be over but it will be worth it.
Waving Through a Window – Ben Platt
Waving Through A Window is from the play ‘Dear Evan Hansen.’ It is a play that has really hit me recently. A good friend recommended this song to me recently and I’ve listened to it so many times since then. I relate to Evan so much. (I want to say that I haven’t seen this play, I’ve only read about it and heard some of the music) Evan has severe social anxiety that keeps him from gaining many friends in high school. And he has a long time crush on a girl that doesn’t know he exists. But, everything changes when a kid at his school commits suicide and his parents think Evan was a good friend. And, Evan begins to play along and spreads the lie further.
Now, suicide is no joke and should never be taken advantage of. Please don’t ever joke about suicide, you never know what the people around you are dealing with.
I particularly love this song because I’ve felt this way for years. ‘Give them no reason to stare/No slipping up if you slip away/So I got nothing to share/No, I got nothing to say.’
I was scared for years that someone would ask if I was okay or not. I didn’t know how to explain my anxiety. So, I hid it.
‘On the outside, always looking in/Will I ever be more than I’ve always been?/’Cause I’m tap, tap, tapping on the glass/I’m waving through a window/I try to speak, but nobody can hear/So I wait around for an answer to appear/While I’m watch, watch, watching people pass/ I’m waving through a window, oh/Can anybody see, is anybody waving back at me?’
I’ve always been the outsider. I’ve never felt like I truly belonged anywhere. When I walk into a room, nobody really seems to notice. No one seems to notice when I’m not around. I feel like I’m waving through a window some days. But, there are advantages to being a loner and not fitting in. There’s hardly any drama, lots of time to think, And, God is very close. But, some days I wish I could fit in. But, then I remember, why would I want to be like everyone else? Why fit in when I was born to stand out? I don’t want to live a mediocre life. I want to be different, I want to change the world and help people. So what if the people around me right now don’t understand me? Someday I’ll find the people who do. And until then, I’ll keep being me and wait. I’ve found a couple of them and I’m so grateful for them.
Not Today – Imagine Dragons
Not Today – this is an interesting song. It was debuted in the movie “Me Before You.” The story of that movie resonated with me on a whole other level. I watched that movie after going through the hardest week of my life. I’m not ready to really go into detail about that week yet. (I have mentioned it in Healing Through Drawing, though.) The short version is that week really gave me a glimpse into what Will went through. Will was a quadriplegic who suffered from severe depression, became suicidal, tried to commit suicide, and finally convinced his parents to let him have a physician-assisted suicide.
People always wonder why someone would even consider suicide. Can you imagine constantly feeling worthless? Can you imagine constantly feeling guilty for every bad thing in your life? Can you imagine what it’s like to feel guilty about the bad days because you don’t’ believe you deserve them? Can you imagine feeling like your world is so emotionless and dark and dismal that the only way you could see to get out of it was through killing yourself? How much turmoil and pain do you think it takes for someone to consider killing themselves? Before you condone someone for killing themselves. Think about what they were going through. You probably don’t even know half of it. Try to be understanding. Please, listen if anyone ever says they are considering suicide. Just, listen to them and be there for them. Give them a reason to live. Show them how much you care. You just might save their life.
This song is about someone going through hard times but being able to get through it with love. But, the promise is that you won’t get over it today. ‘Not today’
‘We finally fall apart and we break each other’s hearts/If we wanna live young, love, we better start today’
I don’t believe I have ever had my heart-broken. Sure, I’ve had my share of crushes and one started to evolve into a relationship. But, by the grace of God, I haven’t ever given my heart away. Someone really can’t break your heart if you didn’t give it to them in the first place. I started once to give my heart away, but then I took it back.
Stars – Skillet
Stars – this song keeps me going. God is my rock. How awesome is it that the One that spoke and worlds were created knows who I am? He knows my every struggle. He knows every tear and every laugh. He gives my life meaning.
‘You spoke a word and life began/Told oceans where to start and where to end/You set in motion time and space/But still you come and you call to me by name/Still you come and you call to me by name’
God calls me by MY NAME! I’m sorry, I just can’t get over this song. It pretty much speaks for itself.
‘If you can calm the raging sea/You can calm the storm in me/You’re never too far away/You never show up too late/So here I am, lifting up my heart/To the one who holds the stars’
God is the One who calms me down. I remember one day a few weeks ago. I was off all day because I was getting ready for a party. I vividly remember getting frustrated and running to my room. I laid down on my bed, got out my prayer journal and a pen, and I took it all to God. Within seconds, I felt peace rush over me. My thoughts calmed down. My attitude changed. My heartbeat normalized. It was amazing. I can’t count the number of times that that has happened. Every time I try to overcome a bad day on my own, I just can’t. All it takes is a few minutes of humble prayer, getting on my knees and admitting that I can’t do this on my own. I need God every day.
What We’re Made Of – Brooklyn and Bailey
What We’re Made Of – This song is a great girl empowerment song.
‘As soon as you finally realize/What you’ve been told is a bunch of lies/Don’t need approval from any guys/Cause what we’re made of looks like stars/And we’re good enough just the way we are/So being me never felt so right’
No one needs approval from any other person. If you look for the approval and applause of the world you will never be satisfied. You need to accept who you are and be proud of yourself. You are made of what’s inside of you. I am not just a blonde girl. I am a Christian, I am smart, I am so many things.
But, I don’t need the approval of a man to find my worth. That is something that I have learned this year. Looking for approval from another person changes you into another person. You are constantly trying to conform to what they want and not what you want. You are your own person and you need to figure out who you are and what makes you happy.
NEVER EVER place your happiness in the hands of another person. You need to BE the person that makes you happy. If you try to find happiness from others you will never be happy. You have to look for the little things that make you happy. Walking in the rain makes me happy. Praying makes me happy. Helping people makes me happy. When you try to be exclusive in your friendships you miss out on so many opportunities to make other people happy. Fun fact, if you strive to make others happy you will find yourself living a much happier life.
Defying Gravity – Idina Menzel and Kristen Chenoweth
Defying Gravity this is probably an odd song to put on this list. It’s a song from a play about witches that live in a fictional land. How can this be relevant?
Well, this song reminds me to not listen to what people say. I’m going to be defying gravity and not listening to the limiting beliefs of others. I’m not going to let their failures dictate my success. I’m going to define my life.
‘Something has changed within me/Something is not the same/I’m through with playing by the rules/Of someone else’s game/Too late for second-guessing/Too late to go back to sleep/It’s time to trust my instincts/Close my eyes and leap!/It’s time to try/Defying gravity/I think I’ll try/Defying gravity/And you can’t pull me down!’
I am constantly changing. But, one thing that I have realized is that I’m done playing by the rules of someone else’s game. I’m going to write my game and my own rules. I’m going to leap and try my hand at being successful and making my dreams a reality. And NO one can pull me down!
So if you care to find me/Look to the western sky!/As someone told me lately:/”Everyone deserves the chance to fly!”/And if I’m flying solo/At least I’m flying free/To those who’d ground me/Take a message back from me/Tell them how I am/Defying gravity/I’m flying high/Defying gravity/And soon I’ll match them in renown!/And nobody in all of Oz/No Wizard that there is or was/Is ever gonna bring me down!
If anyone asks where I am, I’m taking life by the horns and defying gravity. And, nobody is ever gonna bring me down!
Lions – Skillet
Lions and we have another Skillet song. I love this band (if you couldn’t tell.) This song motivates me so much!
‘If we’re gonna fly, we fly like eagles/Arms out wide/If we’re gonna fear, we fear no evil/We will rise/By your power, we will go/By your spirit, we are bold/If we’re gonna stand, we stand as giants/If we’re gonna walk, we walk as lions/We walk as lions’
I’m going to be flying like an eagle. Fear isn’t going to be in my vocabulary anymore. I have nothing to be afraid of with God at my side. He takes all of my fears and gives me the courage to stand against them and defeat them!
‘Today is ours, it’s always been/Before we face the fight/We know who’s gonna win/We live by faith and not by sight/We don’t want safe and quiet/We don’t wanna run and hide’
Today is my day to do my best. I’m trying to make it a mindset of living every day as if it were my last. Because I know that I don’t know when my last day on this earth will be. Jesus won the war when he rose from the dead and defeated Satan and death. I know who’s going to win every battle I fight. God is my rock and my shield. He saves me. I don’t want to run and hide. I want to stand strong and fight!
And, that’s all the songs for this month! What song should I have included in this list? What song was your favorite? Comment below, I’d love to hear from you!
Soli Deo Gloria,