When I have a lot of bad days, one way I help my brain to go back to normal is through art. Drawing has been one of my passions since I was about 15. It’s kind of ironic, that it was about then that I started to notice that I would get nauseous when I did certain things. This continued to just get worse and it took me until I was 17 (July/August 2016 to be exact) to learn that what was wrong with me, was possibly anxiety. (If you want to read more about this, check out Confessions of an Anxious Brain and Confessions of an Anxious Brain (part 2).) I actually just realized the coincidence between when my problems started and me drawing more while I was writing that…
If you look through my sketchbooks you will notice that over the past few months, most of the drawings were done either during or after bad days. This is because art really helps me focus and get out of my head. And it’s a good stress relief. (I’m only going to go over the pictures that I’ve done in the past week and a half or so. But, if you want to see older ones, comment below I just might do another post like this.)
I did this picture on June 15. That was a Thursday, I remember because I wasn’t having a great day. I don’t normally draw stuff like this. As you will see below, most of my drawings are happy and sometimes colorful. But, this picture helped me to think about drawing the storm that was inside of me, instead of letting it fester there. It was also raining outside when I was drawing this, so that probably inspired me some.
This picture reminds me that we can find life and hope even in the darkest of times. I love thunderstorms. The power of thunder and lightning inspires me. I’m amazed by the fact that, rain makes plants grow. And, lightning starts forest fires, that cause certain seed pods to open and release the seeds so that, they can grow into new plants. It also cleans the forests of dead things so that new things can grow.
I also did this picture on June 15. I’m not sure what I was thinking about that brought this out. But, it started out as a broken heart and I then decided to turn it into a fairy type thing. I feel like it means to me, that we can find beautiful things in the midst of hard times. It might be drawn in black and white, but, I think if I had used colors; the wings would be red and the body would be pink. I love fairies and mystical figures. In fact, Lord of the Rings is one of my favorite books. (I know that there aren’t any fairies in those books, but there are Elves and Hobbits and other mystical creatures.)
This picture reminds me that even small things can have a big impact. As Dr. Seuss said,
“A person’s a person, no matter how small.”
I drew this Friday, June 16th. I love this picture. Honestly, it makes me wonder at just how much of a contradiction my brain is sometimes. It really amazes me that a brain that writes crime novels also draws beautiful things like this. The variety of drawings in this book amazes me, even though I’m the one that did them! I don’t understand where they come from. (Actually, I do, most of my inspiration comes from Pinterest.)
This drawing gives me a lot of hope. The hearts drawn all over it, remind me that love still exists. No, I don’t just mean the romantic love between you and your significant other. I mean the love that also exists between you and your family and you and your friends. I love my family and friends. For me, love is a choice. I choose to put their needs above my own. I don’t take my word lightly, if I decide I’m going to love someone, it means a lot.
The flowers all over this drawing remind me that life is beautiful and unique. If you look closely, every flower is different, just like every life is different. Every person is beautiful in their own unique way. The greatest kind of beautiful that a person can be, is beautiful on the inside. People who radiate inner beauty are the best kind of people. These are the people who always know just what to say to calm you down. Or to lift your spirits. They’re kind and compassionate. But not afraid to tell you when you’re being stupid. They remind you to take care of yourself. And, most importantly, they remind you that life is worth living.
The diamonds remind me that life is precious. There is nothing as valuable in this world as the gift of life. It is one gift that you only receive one time. Some days you have to fight yourself to keep it. Some days you remember just how much you enjoy this gift. Some days you despise it. But, they’re all just days. This reminds me of a quote I saw by Max Lucado, recently:
“When you are in the final days of your life, what will you want? Will you hug that college degree in the walnut frame? Will you ask to be carried to the garage so you can sit in your car? Will you find comfort in rereading your financial statement? Of course not. What will matter then will be people. If relationships will matter most then, why shouldn’t they matter most now?”
Going through bad days remind me just how important it is to be there for people, and to take the time to pursue my relationships with my friends and family. Because, one day, they won’t be here and neither will I.
The cross in this picture reminds me of my Savior. Christ died for me! He died to pay the penalty for my sins so that I can spend eternity praising God!
The vines remind me of the people in my life who seem to be in every part of it. They seem so insignificant sometimes, but they tie it all together. I don’t know what my life would be like without my friends and family.
All the circles and dots remind me that life goes on. And that we live in a cycle of repetition. History is constantly repeating itself.
The purple color reminds me of royalty and the fact that I am a princess because I am a daughter of the greatest King!
This picture reminds me that even the random parts of life intertwine to make a beautiful picture. None of these designs look all that interesting on their own. But when you mix them together it looks incredible.
I worked on this picture while watching ‘Me Before You’. (Great movie by the way. Highly recommend seeing it. [Of course, the book is better. But they didn’t ruin it and that makes me happy.]) This picture reminds me of that movie, mostly the depression, and suicide. These topics are very dear to me. They are topics that I research all the time because I want to try to wrap my mind around what it’s like for someone to be so depressed that they commit suicide. I want to understand this because I want to help. I want people to know that depression can be treated and you can live a normal life.
I don’t think I can pull as much meaning from this picture as the last one. But, let’s see. The flowers that you can only see half of, remind me that there are parts of every person and every story that no one sees. We usually only parade the good, pretty things to the world. Most people don’t take the time to try to learn about the hidden parts of a person. The different designs all over remind me that there are so many differences between each person; but, when the differences come together, they compliment each other and a beautiful picture can emerge.
The tiny size of most of the designs reminds me that it’s the little things that make the difference. It’s the little good morning texts. The ‘How are you really doing’. The little ways that each person does to show that they care. Maybe it’s a hug. Maybe it’s a note reminding the person that they are amazing. Maybe it’s cleaning the house to surprise the family. Maybe it’s a letter. Maybe it’s just listening when someone needs to rant. These are things that make life better. I remember the little things with friends and family more than the big, expensive things. I remember the late night conversations discussing everything, more than the long vacations. Those conversations are what I will always treasure.
This is probably the weirdest and creepiest picture in this set. I love this picture and love how it turned out. Eyes are actually one of my favorite things to draw because they are pretty easy to make look realistic. I love looking at people’s eyes and seeing just how different they are and all the different colors that are in them. (Also, veins make eyes look creepy and amazing at the same time.)
I don’t know if this picture has a specific reminder/meaning for me. Except to maybe stop and take the time to look at the small things in life like eyes.
I find it so interesting how adding the highlights to a dark eyeball is what really makes it look realistic. This makes me think about how we need both the dark times and the bright times in life to make it real. Life is all about balance.
This picture is probably my absolute favorite out of all of these. I adore this quote because it reminds me of struggles. As much as I want to remember only the good things in life. I know that I wouldn’t be the person I am today if I hadn’t gone through the struggles that I have. It’s from pushing people away and being alone that I have a greater appreciation for the people in my life. Especially the people who pushed back and didn’t just leave.
This reminds me of another quote I saw recently, I don’t remember who said it.
“If your why isn’t big enough, your excuse will be.”
This reminds me to always have a reason for everything. If I don’t have a reason for doing something, then I won’t do it. It’s that simple. I write this blog because I want to help people and give them hope. I want to inspire people to push themselves and to remember their ‘why’. I eat healthily and exercise. Because I want to live life to the fullest and I can’t do that if I’m sick all the time or don’t have the energy. I draw because I want to leave my rendition of the beauty of this world for the next generation. I pursue friendships because I want to be there for people when they need it.
Everyone has a reason for why they are still holding on. What is yours?
Even if it’s just that you want to see the sunrise tomorrow. Or you want to get married someday. Or you want to write a book. Or you just want to hug your best friends one more time. There is a reason that you are still here. Think about it. If it’s not big enough you will have an excuse. Please, think hard about this. Think until your reason outweighs the excuse by a million.
The colors in this piece give me peace. The brightness of them gives me hope. The butterfly reminds me that changes as much as they might hurt, turn out to be better in the end. It also reminds me that I have to spread my own wings and fly if I want to go anywhere. I can’t rely on someone else to flap them. This butterfly also reminds me of my older sister. Because she asked me to draw two of them on her arm. I love my sister. She is one of my best friends and has always been there for me.
This quote reminds me of one of my other friends. This person has been through and is still going through a lot and struggles with a lot of things. This picture reminds me to never give up on this person, because I may never know if I was the reason they didn’t give up. I want to be the reason. I want people to know that life is beautiful and worth it. You should never give up because life gets better.
This picture makes me happy. It’s symmetrical, colorful, and full of patterns. I love color. Light blue is my favorite color. It reminds me of the sky. I love the sky and clouds. They remind me of the awesome power and creativity of God. It’s totally incredible that blobs of water moisture that weighs billions of pounds just float around above our heads. I love it at sunset when God paints a beautiful picture in the sky with light.
This picture reminds me, through the similar colors used for most of it, that even though people may be similar there is always something that makes us unique. We should all celebrate our uniqueness instead of trying to be the same. Think of how boring this world would be if everyone did the same things and looked exactly the same. What makes you unique?
Flowers remind me that beauty is fleeting. Flowers don’t last that long. But the memories that we make with them do last. Flowers are given to congratulate someone or to celebrate an anniversary, whether it’s marriage, or the anniversary of your birth, or someone’s death. Flowers console us. What is your favorite kind of flower?
And, that’s all the completed pictures that I have done recently. Which one was your favorite? Why? What meaning does it have for you? What does it remind you of? Comment below! I’d love to know what you thought about these pictures. Maybe you’ll teach me something!
Soli Deo Gloria,